Saturday, February 25, 2006
At Hotel Paris in Las Vegas.
Memories. Picked up my guitar for the first time in ages and was playing, when the screensaver came on with all the pictures taken in the States. Really kind of missed the times back there, when I was absorbed in a world of my own, and oblivious to reality. If money could buy back time, I'd probably still choose to re-live the same moments back then. But guess all the "what-ifs" only remains as dreams, as time is un-manipulatable.
Hmm..chose not to sing for the conference yesterday, and back at my seat as pastor preached on times and seasons, I teared as I happened to read a text from my hp. Guess meeshell's right. Perhaps some things are better left untold, and perhaps, better best forgotten.
Exchange! Seriously reconsidering going for exchange. Even Eunice is contemplating about it, seeing the absence of all the year 3s around. In parallel, I can't help but be tempted to go as well. Guess one of the most exciting part is to plan for the trip. Took a short walk down to OIR last week with Merv and Eunice, and began to shortlist all the countries and universities. Had to go by elimination, coz there were so many, especially in Europe. Popular places were Amsterdam (Universitiy Maastrict), Sweden (Uppsula), and indefinately UK. Guess I should go pray about it yeah, coz it will be a whole 6 months or more if I go. Have to start planning my modules now too, especially when application starts in Jun-Jul. Sigh, there's so many places and stuff that I wanna do in Europe, like taking the boat ride in Venice, watching a musical at Broadway, swimming at the beach in Spain and walking down the streets of Vienna. It'll probably be once in a lifetime chance to go yeah, while we're still carefree from the trials of working life. Well, we'll see how it goes by then ya?
Okies, gotta run to school before I'm late for the talk. Cya!
Posted by sOtz at 9:44 am
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
As life breezes past.
Growing old, with You. Isn't it strange, that when you're young, you'll go all out to chase after the unpredictable; but interestingly as you grow older, you'll tend to settle for things that are more predictable, and perhaps more stable. Is it really the loss of energy to pursue, or is it a change of heart to start with. Well, guess sometimes even your own actions beat you, and leaves you clueless. Perhaps sometimes, the greatest unpredictability, is found within. Wouldn't you concur?
Seeing myself thru another's eyes. Really, I'm not as perfect the person as the one that you think I might be. Reflecting back on the past year, I've made a couple of decisions, some good, some bad. In whichever the case, I've always held the unspoken rule, never to regret my decisions. But somehow for the first time, I'm feeling a tinge of that. Maybe it's cause I'm not as strong-willed as before, or maybe coz I've paid too high a price, or maybe just simply cause I knew I was headed to the wrong direction and yet went ahead with it. Whatever the cause, guess it really doesn't matter. What counts ahead, is probably the reparation work. Stay strong yeah, sOtzy!
Love, defined. Guess what? That's the topic I have for the 80-page gene cell group project. Gonna study the stages of love, and the rationale behind attraction. Was talking to MrBaggy about it, and found we actually had the same opinion on many attributes. One of which I asked him, isn't it a contradiction, to say you've stopped loving someone? Coz love in itself is unconditional, and in the event that it is conditional, then perhaps you fall short of love itself. Defining love, is probably one of the hardest thing to do yeah. Perhaps it's when your heart pauses momentarily or when one can make you laugh and cry at the same time, or perhaps when you see too many shadows of that person everywhere you go. Well, define it for me, will you? Grins. Anyway, aside from that, I'm pretty excited too, about trying out the local uni exchange; perhaps I could take a few modules together with MrBaggy too. Cool! Also, 'm kinda looking forward to the gene cell trip next weekend before the term break, and the diving trip too! Maybe someday we could really go diving in mauritius yeah? Winks.
Okies, have to zzZzz now. Goodnites, and a BIG hug!
Posted by sOtz at 11:34 pm
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Gab's B'day! Celebrated a belated one for him yesterday! Dined at this really neat jap restaurant at MS. Nice food and sake too! Sigh, but paid with my voice I guess.
Posted by sOtz at 10:18 pm
My cousins! Annabelle looks so sweet! And Gerald, study hard in Auzzie yeah!
Posted by sOtz at 9:53 pm
Darlink Meeshell! In school before the bash at MOS.